I cant do this.
Just getting through the day requires such an effort.
I want to close my eyes and never wake up. Put an end to all this pain. Everything hurts all the time. The only time i find relief is when I'm with her and with that limited to only art god. i need her all the time not just during school. i live for that hour everyday. everything else is hell. I'm either fighting with my mom or crying. what kind of life is that? I know my dad is praying that i get over this "phase" am i not good enough the way i am? I mean i know I'm fucked up. N i suck at everything there is. And I'm stupid. AndI'm fat. And I'm not worth it. And I'm meaningless. And i don't deserve to live. What was i talking about again? O yeah, but cant u just accept who i am? please?
Why should i keep going when all there is is hurt?
Why should i burden other people with knowing me?
Why should i be with you, i cause you so much pain u deserve better. much better.
Would anyone care? besides her.
Is there anyone else who gives a damn?
I haven't been to counseling in a really long time. Since before i came out.*sigh* if only we had health insurance.
When will the pain end?
When i make it end? No. You cant. Don't think about it. Fuck.
3 comments:
You aren't fat!
Sorry, you aren't a lot of those things, but that was the one I decided to protest. xD
You know, I was typing your address into the address bar thingy, and all of a sudden Living La Vida Loca popped into my head.
You know, the song?
Thought I'd share. xD
okay, then I'll protest to the stupid one. xP
YOU'RE NOT STUPID!
<3
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