We feel like us again

I missed this, I missed us. Everything feels right again. I love you baby.
Always&forever

-I don't even care anymore. I did care, a whole hell of a lot. But then you went and made it worse. I missed you, I stilled cared about you. But now i just don't understand how you turned into this person. This person who can't even put anything into perspective. I just don't understand, and I'm done trying. I'm done wasting my energy and thoughts on this. I'm done with it all. And I really don't like this new you. In fact I think you're super mean. And super mean to the people I care most about. So stay away from them. They don't need you hurting them too.

This week had been pretty damn fantastic.

I'm trying to post a happy blog. Not post any of those thoughts. So I'm just going to end it there.

I love you guys.
and I love my amazingly beautiful girlfriend <3

Love.

You knew we'd be there, or at least you knew I would be. I care about you too much to let you do that alone. You will never have to, I'm not going anywhere.

My rubberband seems to be working for now. Or it's taking the edge off at least. My jeans are in just the right place. They move up and down perfectly positioned, an amazing reminder.

You were super cute at carline today. All tired and happy. It made me smile, an honest smile. You make everything seem just a little bit brighter. I love you baby <3

I can't fix this, and i don't know how to handle it. I need to make it all better. Or manageable at least. I want to keep you both with me all the time. To see that you're okay. To be there to help you be okay. I need you with me all the time, to keep me okay. I can't do this alone, not again. Sitting in my room for endless hours makes it impossible to keep my mind on things other than the pushpins on my wall, or the incredible sharpness of my ninja stars... (that are now in Rachel's possession). I don't know how to make it stop. Someone please make it go away. Please... I'm begging you... I can't take it.

I want to makeout in front of you, invite you to a strip club, and talk about how I'd give anything to have some mindblowing sex with my crazy hot girlfriend.

That is all...
I love you, and you, and you <3

Thank you

Why?

Admitting.