My girlfriend

Is so fucking cute. I can't wait to see you tomorrow.

You make my life hell

I've been trying so hard to fight, to resist. I tell my self over and over that I don't care, that it doesn't matter. But I let you hurt me. No matter how hard I try to prevent it. I fucking hate being looked down on. All I want to do is make her happy and instead of seeing that you destroy me. I almost let myself ruin everything. I almost let you do that to me. If I ever let myself feel that again, it's going to be for me. Not for you.
It's constant. Making it impossible to ignore, impossible to fight.
I can only take so much.

I want school so fucking bad. I need it. I need the escape. I'm trapped here,dwelling in all this shit. Almost there. I'm almost there.

I missed you. And you. I'm so glad to have you both back.

I think I have unrealistically high expectations for this school year. I'm constantly setting myself up for disappointment. You'd think I'd learn.

Look I blogged, happy now? <3

Baby I hope you feel better. I hate that you're sick and I can't do anything to make you feel better. I will someday my love, I promise. When we get out of here and it can just be us again <3

So sick of summer

No, that's not what I was trying to get you to say. I told you a hundred times. I just wanted to understand babe. And I do now. So thank you.

But you need to know that I worry about you constantly. It's a pretty constant feeling. It rarely turns into anger but when it does I hide it pretty well.

And all that stuff about your mom we were talking about... I don't know. All I know is that something needs to change. I can only take so much before I break down and give in. I don't know what need to change or how to change it. But something needs to happen.

I forgot how much being around you makes me smile and I need those shadess back <3

School please? Like now?