That feeling that you get

When every girl you ever talk to likes boys.

Ihateithere.

3:57 AM

My head hurts so bad. I feel like I'm going to puke from the pain. My mind wont stop racing. I can feel the anxiety coming on in unbearable amounts. I don't know who to call. I need you to calm me down. I know you have to get up in the morning... in a few hours really... and I know I'm not your problem anymore. So I wont call you. I don't have anyone to call instead. You are the only person who knows me through and through. My chest feels like its going to collapse and I swear my head is going to explode.

I finished reading Deathly Hallows tonight... I couldn't help but cry during the prince's tale yet again. It's much more vivid now that I've seen it in movie form. Felt Snape's love for Lilly. I don't even care that it is fucking fictional. He loved her his whole fucking life. Even though she didn't love him. He died for that love.

God I love you. I keep trying and trying to turn it off. I know that you don't love me. I know that you are better off now and happier. I just wish my heart would realize that. I can't make it listen to me. I don't know what to do without you. I love you with every part of me. I have since I was 12. I feel like I'm going to puke.

I hate this fucking anxiety.
Make it stop.
Please. God.

Mark

It feel so damn good to finally be working on something. I really need this project to turn out well. Getting into college is kinda important. I can see myself at UCF... and honestly a Florida school makes the most sense. SO. I need this project to get me into UCF film. That would be fucking fantastic. I just bought a bottle of fake blood a dartboard and like 10 toothbrushes... haha.
I'm reading Deathly Hallows again before I go see it another time. I really should be reading Lord of the Rings instead but oh well.

GodIreallywantthisshorttoturnoutgoodenough.

Btw

I was talking about rebound for me. Not you. But alright.

Not harsh.

Repetitive.

I just wish that I could do everything you're doing. I need some rebound relationships/hookups... that'd be good.

It is so much more than a story

This story is more than just a craze. It’s more than just a popular movie. This story changed lives. I grew up with the characters. I felt their pain and cried for their deaths. This story helped shaped me into who I am.

I learned that I can’t make it alone, and don’t have to from Harry. I understood what he was feeling when he wanted to just do it all on his own and save everyone else the hurt. And when Hermionie and Ron wouldn’t let him I felt his relief mixed with the guilt. They taught me that it was okay. That it was okay to let other people in, to let other people help.

The Weasleys showed me how important family is. That they are the people that matter most and that in the end you owe them everything. The bond that they all share is unbreakable and reading about it and watching it come to life on screen made me so so great-full for the people in my life.

This story is all about love. In all its forms. The importance of it and what it can do. Its purity. Its beauty.

Its about people. Friendship. Trust.

This story did so much for me. I cannot express how much thanks and gratitude I have for everyone involved. For J.K Rowling.

Hogwarts will always feel like home.

“Albus Severus,” Harry said quietly, so that nobody but Ginny could hear, and she was tactful enough to pretend to be waving to Rose, who was now on the train, “you were named for two headmasters of Hogwarts. One of them was a Slytherin and he was probably the bravest man I ever knew.”

— J.K. Rowling (Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows)

I'm not good at being single.

It's a problem.

I need a cute girl to flirt with.

Hey you.

I miss you.
I'm worried about you.