Resolutions?

I know i'm supposed to have the long list or whatever but I don't really. 2010 was crazy for me. It seems like it lasted 10 years instead of just one. I'm so glad to be out of it. To try and put everything that happened in the past. It wasn't all bad though. There were lots of good things thrown in.

2010

I made a mess of just about every friendship I had

I had breakdown after breakdown

I tore up my skin and bit my lips till they bled

I used hotsauce as lipgloss and hairties as relplacements

I lost interest in pretty much everything I cared about

I came out to pretty much the world, well the world that didn't know

I made a bestfriend that I trust with my life and has helped get through all of this.

I rekindled old friendships

I failed my driving test twice

I went to Maine and got out of here for a little while

I came out to my hardcore marine uncle and he didn't freak out, just told me she was cute and that he approved

I realized how lucky I am to have my family

I went to amazing concerts with my amazing girlfriend

I still have that amazing girlfriend

I fell back in love with film making

I became okay with myself... for the most part.

All I want from 2011 is for it to be better than 2010. And I think it will be, in fact I know it will be.

She's cuterr

I love you babygirl

I love my family

My family being here makes me miss New England... well being around family. And I mean all of them. The family that has huge clam bakes and gets together every christmas eve. I miss that. I miss being on that cruise ship with all of them there. With everyone that's scattered across the country in one place. They amaze me. How amazing and accepting and perfect they all are. I'm so lucky to have them. To be able to have my girlfriend over my grandparents house for dinner, and introduce her to my aunt and uncle and cousin and have them treat her like part of the family. I know how lucky I am. Thank you. Thank you for being so amazing.

And baby? You fit right in.

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Yesterday

Was amazing. Really really amazing.

I love you babygirl.

We really needed that, just being able to spend all that time together.

You make me so happy. So so so happy.

I'm so lucky to be yours.

You wish your girlfriend was as hot as mine :)

I'm too lazy to flip it so turn your head :P

The Runaways Dead end Justice with lyrics (Kristen and Dakota)

Kristen's voice is delicious.

Ryan :)

He's the best ever.

I need to own this movie

I'm pretty sure I'm gunna buy it today.

Best movie ever.

My girlfriend

Is the cutest fucking thing on this planet. Juss sayin.

I love you babygirl.

I love the webcam on my new laptop.

Today was really nice.

I love my family, all of them. It's nice to have them in florida.

I got lots of cool stuff :)

But my Heat gear is the best, right babe? ;)

This.

I don't know what to say anymore.
I know I cant change your mind.
I know that nothing I say can do anything about it.

I don't know what to say.
I don't know what to do.

I'm sorry for caring.
I'm sorry for not being able to sit here and watch the person that I love turn into a completely different person.
I'm sorry for wanting to help you.
I'm sorry i can't just sit here and let you do whatever you want.
I'm sorry for finally saying what I feel.

And I hate myself for believing you for a second. You're not going to try and do something about it. Instead you're going to keep going until there's nothing left.

I told you all I knew how to say.

I'm sorry I don't know what to do.
I'm sorry I'm not enough to help.
I'm sorry I can't make you feel better anymore.
I'm sorry that I can't fix this.
I'm sorry I can't make you see how beautiful you are.

I need to numb the pain. Just a little.
I'm sorry I'm not strong enough not too.

History Project

http://www.youtube.com/user/WickeddSickk17?feature=mhum

It's pretty awful, but it makes me laugh :)

December bitchh

My birthday's in a month, crazy right?
Today was really nice. For the most part anyway. There isn't a better feeling than having you in my arms. It feels just as amazing now as it did years ago when I couldn't even get up the guts to tell you.

Ahaha Ryan flirted with the gay guy at Taco Bell so we got extra large drinks.

Universal for my birthday? Harry Potter land? A gryffindor scarf? Yes please.

My dino puzzle high score in math today was 1605. Maybe I'll beat it tomorrow. Sounds much more appealing than algebra.

I actually did chemistry today. You know if I actually applied myself I'd probably have a hundred in that class right now cause I'm actually pretty decent at it. But then again if I actually applied myself in most of my classes I'd have A's. I tried for like the first four weeks of school just to prove to myself that I could do it but I lost all of that drive.

You looked really really cute today.

I'd love to go to New York for college. NYU and the New York Film Academy are pretty much my dream schools. Dad thinks I have a shot, and he believes in me. He told me Ithat he thinks I have the talent and drive to make it in this industry. Maybe I'll actually start to believe that. I know I want it bad enough but I don't think I'm talented enough, but then again, that requires self esteem.

I've gotta get off... leaving the office.
Bye loves