I think it's about time

I made a decent post huh?

This school year is already so much better than last year. I get to see my baby pretty much all day and I go out pretty much every weekend.

I wish I had a class with you though :( I really dont like never seeing you. July 14th 2011 <3 I'm already counting down the days.

All of that stuff that I wrote on that note in English was true baby. You made me feel like it was okay, like I was okay. I'm completely okay with who I am now. All because of you <3

I feel grosss. I hate being sick. It feels like someone filled my head with cotton balls.

I hope I'm okay to go to school tomorrow. I miss you so much already.

Okay I guess this isnt going to be a decent post. I can't think anymore.

Goodbye my darlings <3

Best day everrrrrrrrr

Hardknocks and Tegan and Sara and Paramore and Jamie and Ana <3

Baby that was amazing. You were so sweet and supportive when I didnt feel good.
My arms around you, your arms around me, my hand in yours. Baby it was all so incredible.

The show was sooo fucking rad. And damn Tegan and Hayley looked so good :P

You were so adorable falling asleep on me on the way home, and wearing my shirt.

I think we should do it all again. And again. And again.

My girlfriend

Is so fucking cute. I can't wait to see you tomorrow.

You make my life hell

I've been trying so hard to fight, to resist. I tell my self over and over that I don't care, that it doesn't matter. But I let you hurt me. No matter how hard I try to prevent it. I fucking hate being looked down on. All I want to do is make her happy and instead of seeing that you destroy me. I almost let myself ruin everything. I almost let you do that to me. If I ever let myself feel that again, it's going to be for me. Not for you.
It's constant. Making it impossible to ignore, impossible to fight.
I can only take so much.

I want school so fucking bad. I need it. I need the escape. I'm trapped here,dwelling in all this shit. Almost there. I'm almost there.

I missed you. And you. I'm so glad to have you both back.

I think I have unrealistically high expectations for this school year. I'm constantly setting myself up for disappointment. You'd think I'd learn.

Look I blogged, happy now? <3

Baby I hope you feel better. I hate that you're sick and I can't do anything to make you feel better. I will someday my love, I promise. When we get out of here and it can just be us again <3

So sick of summer

No, that's not what I was trying to get you to say. I told you a hundred times. I just wanted to understand babe. And I do now. So thank you.

But you need to know that I worry about you constantly. It's a pretty constant feeling. It rarely turns into anger but when it does I hide it pretty well.

And all that stuff about your mom we were talking about... I don't know. All I know is that something needs to change. I can only take so much before I break down and give in. I don't know what need to change or how to change it. But something needs to happen.

I forgot how much being around you makes me smile and I need those shadess back <3

School please? Like now?

*drools*

You inspired me to go watch the runaways.. So commenting on the wicked sexiness of it was required.




And yeah.. I pretty much want hair like that too.
New favorite movie? I think so.

Heyheyhey.

The whole putting yourself first thing? I get it, and it's what you should be doing. You shall not have to deal with my drama but I'm not losing you. As long as you don't want to lose me anyway. I still love to have fun.. and I hate sitting in a room talking about how sad I am. I still have bad days.. and today was one. So that's what I was focusing on. So yeah, just had to get that out there.

You need to get back from the keysss. I miss you tons and we need to chill. Play games, shoot guns, laugh. I can't wait :)

I miss you lots baby. This summer's better than last summer... let's keep it that way please?